Tagal ko tong gnawa :))
1. I’ve known you as my bully when I was 6. As the pan-tiew when I was 12. Ever since, suck up ka na palagi sa mga Chinese teachers!!! Hahaha!! ewwwwwww!! You have been a friend who always had issues with another.. and I guess that’s what I love about you.. because you constantly make me feel needed. And during the time that I needed someone the most, you stuck by me without me even asking. And that’s what made me really consider you as my best friend. I have fun even if it only means crashing into your house and stretch on the sofa while listening you rant about stuff. And I love it whenever we frequently joke about our future and how we will treat/torture each other’s kids! I know how you deeply love your friends, but somehow have pride, so you don’t acknowledge it and nangbubully ka nalang! I love you for who you are. You’re a breath of fresh air. :)
2. I really feel comfortable when im with you. You’re like a brother to me.. kaya nga parang incest kasi…….whahaha joke lang!! I truly look up to your multiple talents in arts and music. Grabe ang galling mo talaga. Gwapo pa! And although nakakatakot ka pag bad mood, I really had fun in our gimiks dati. Super sweet and caring mo talaga. Thank you for being one of my closest pals, and being so open and honest with me. I’m happy for you na mukhang masaya ka dyan. Miss you!
3. I remember how you slept over with the Core last year. Hindi pa tayo close nun, but I really enjoyed your company, because it was then that I noticed how you always try not to make anyone feel out of place. Kahit na matanda ka na (yesss you are) you still have the hyper energy of a kid, and I especially enjoy ung times na nagtatakbuhan sa field or sa ulan! You are always concerned with people around you, and I love you for that. Kaya ka nga bestfriend ng bayan! :))
4. Always up to date with everyone.. I admire your skill of how you can constantly keep track to your friends’ lives despite the humungous number of them. And I can see why you can have so many friends, and loved by everyone. :) Honestly, I always rely on your happy personality to remind me of the happy side of life—especially how the shallow things people usually miss can give us the biggest laughs. We’ve been inseparable. Now that I think about it, ito ung first summer na we’re not together!! (Except for gimiks and outing/s) Nuououou! I’m really, really sorry of how I often get you involved with my issues with guys.. Thank you so much for always sticking by me.
5. I always followed you around when we were small. Everything you did, I wanted to do. Now that you’ve grown so beautifully, i thought that I was living under your shadow--- only to find out that you thought you were living under mine. I find it such a blessing to have you--- as a mother, as a sister and as a friend. You always took care of me, and at the same time trusted me enough to respect my decisions. I’m touched by how much you want us to be close. Be assured that I also want the same.. though please listen whenever I say that I’m concerned.. It doesn’t mean that I don’t trust you. I know that you’re aware of your limits. I’m just scared that others don’t know you as much and may judge you wrong.. And though it is inevitable to have occasional misunderstandings, I can’t imagine life now without you. As you said before, ‘mas magiging sabog pa ako kung ikaw yung nawala..’
6. Throughout the time that I was growing up, I only saw your faults, and never really made the effort to know your side of the story. I blamed all the crying and screaming solely on you. And I’m terribly sorry of how we didn’t give you the chance to let us love and understand you.. Now that life has drastically changed our lifestyle, I came to realize how you’re doing your best. It breaks my heart to sometimes hear you sob while you sleep. I appreciate your efforts. I truly do. Just be patient with me as I try to be better for you as well..
7. You have been one of the people I admire the most. And it seems like I’m subconsciously following your footsteps! Oh nose! Hahaha! I remember how you courageously fought for your Faith when you were banned from going to church or paying tithes. I also remember how you made sure we had faith enough to believe the impossible, sharing us God’s word everyday, and praying by mom’s bedside.. I am a very proud sister because of you. And if anyone is bound to be successful, it is you. I pray the best for you. :)
8. You were the most affected among the siblings.. I feel terrible how you spent endless days and nights to take care of mom, witnessing the most traumatic things.. I want you to be successful, especially for all the effort you put in your future. And I really want you to find faith in God again. Alam kong may certain someone ka na palaging namimiss, and sobrang gusto ko kayong magkatuloy (kahit na ndi ko cya nakakausap) just so your heart won’t be shattered to pieces once more.. I love it whenever you do the strange things you do at home.. like suddenly licking me on the cheek, or breaking into a dance out of the blue.. especially whenever you hug me early in the morning (11am) just because. Awwww.. love you.. :)
9. You give the impression to others as if you’re the horniest person alive Hahaha! May nickname pa ako sayo kasi palagi kang kumakapit hanggang mamula braso ko! But really, I remember that one special day that you showed me the real you--- Of what you went through; Of what you are facing now. I am speechless by your strength and your will, although often wavering (sorry for not being there :( ), and I really want to help you, but it frustrates me because I don’t know what I should do. God knows what words I need to tell you to make life a lot less complicated. If only watching movies together or merely laughing at shallow distractions in life would be enough to make your misery go away.. It’s been so long since we really talked again. Although I may not have the answers, I will always be here to listen. Love you.. :)
10. Sobrang funny talaga ng first impression ko sayo… I never would’ve thought na magiging close tayo hahaha.. I find it very sweet of you to always look for me when you want someone to talk to. I know that you just want somebody to listen, kaya im sorry kung paminsan naiimpatient ako when I feel paulit ulit lang depression mo.. I’m also sorry na madalas kita na0-OP, it’s just hard for me to always be by your side, and I really want you to get enjoy with other people without me. I feel special when you look for me, but then, I also want you to be strong enough and be more confident in relying on yourself..
11. You were the new student in 1st yr hs, and when I saw you, akala ko some cheerful and cute little girl ka. Un pala, hindi ka girl. Hahahaha joke lang :P I don’t know what to say. You’re multi-talented. Multi-lingual. Multi-ply (lalang). I really look up to you (kahit na masmaliit ka sakin :)) because of your generosity and especially your Faith. I love your personality. I love your house. I love your adorable shobe! I love the twilight books you lent me! And most especially, I love you hihihi! :)
12. I remember having you as my seatmate when we were 10. We always chatted during class, but I can only remember one conversation we had. We were listing down shortcut words such as because: bcoz, etc. (Wala pang text and ym nun so big deal un dati hahaha!) One thing lead to another and our relationship became awkward.. from what I remembered, we stopped talking to each other from grade 5 to 2nd year hs, until came the day that I offered you Nerds after you asked me the whereabouts of Nikki. Galling nh, I have no idea bat naalala ko pa un! :O I’m really thankful how we became friends again in 3rd yr. And how close we became. I admire how deeply you see life, people, politics, religion, just anything in the world--- You always had a deep outlook that would leave me thinking. I love how you always put others’ desires before your own.. and how you always listen. Thanks for being such a selfless friend..
13. Spent hours rereading your old blog the other night. I was drowning in sadness of how I took you for granted. I can’t believe how so full of myself I was, that I overlooked a friend who was always at my side. My first term in college had ironically been the peek of my life.. partly because of you. And when I try to remember a happy moment from that time, the first thing that comes to mind was the time when we were playing this drawing game we made up. I remember laughing so much that I cried. Thinking back of how we were then.. makes me realize over and over how time has really changed so much..
14. When I was having issues with a certain friend, I remember you inviting me to have lunch with your group as we talked in the bathroom after PE. Then after lunch, we laughed our butts off in the conserve while waiting for class. Because of this, I have found 2 of my most treasured friends—thus the powerpuff girls! You are the most law-abiding and kindest person I know. I understand that you have so much more ahead of you, and you should step out of your shell and live life without fear. But I also know that life would somehow make a way on it’s own to make you do this. I could only wait and see how time can make you grow more mature, while I enjoy the sweetest girl that you are now.
15. The first time I met you, I really thought you were the quiet and shy type (and type na type ka talaga ni *****!!). But then, you turned out to be the opposite! You triggered the adventurous side of me kasi ikaw nagging kasama ko sa mga gawaing walang hiya! And I remember teaching you dance maniax, although sa huli ikaw na ang naging master ko hahaha! I’m sorry that I took you for granted while you were still here—when you were still reachable and tangible. I remember IM-ing you in the middle of the night, crying as I typed away about my bad dreams.. (I don’t know if you remember this, though.) You had been my emo faucet during those hard times.. Nung nag grup msg ako about the bad news, iba sinend ko sayo because it’s you who I was most open about how I felt..You have always been one of a kind.. Ang layo mo kasi, tuloy nauubos load ko sayo hahaha.. If only I could hug you now. >:D<
16. I remember stealing your hat from your friend’s car after watching a certain UAAP game hahaha! Nakadisplay cya right now sa cabinet door :P It makes me feel good whenever you call (but obviously ndi naman ako makwento), and it seems that no distance can ever stop those calls. I still can’t imagine how you can be so skillful when it comes to girls. But although you don’t really consider us one of THE girls, you still treat us as YOUR little girls, with you as our father. :X It’s really a blast having you around.. so please come back to your children soon!!
17. You have been so strong with all you’re going through, and especially how much u went through in the past. Sobrang hanga ako of how you have become so independent from your parents in such an early age. I miss our cukeng and Happy Burger days. There had often been issues with you and a friend, but your love for your friends had been proven to be more important. Sobrang bait and patient mo talaga.. as in. I really miss you. And I wish I can make you feel better whenever you feel lost or alone way over there.. Donuts forever ;)
18. Since that one special day we spent together, there had been this intense bond between us. You often catch me whenever I cry secretly, kaya super nahihiya ako about how often you see me this way kasi sobrang iyakin ko talaga.. I really appreciate how you would just discreetly hand me your hanky without any questions, knowing that all I need is your hug.. I can often rely on you to read past the happy façade. Despite the numerous problems we’ve been through, and even as I’m holding back from saying things you want to hear, be assured that I care. I always will. Thanks for making me feel significant. You truly are special to me.
19. I’m speechless by your selflessness to me. No one can ever live up to the standards you etched in my life. Although palagi ko nireremind sayo ung away natin dati and the angry words you said, I only say it as a joke, because I know that all that bitterness is lost as a speck in the immeasurable things and sacrifice you did for me. You want to provide me with so much things because of my loss, and although I decline, it’s enough just to know how much you’re willing to spoil me hahaha.. You are truly the person that I trust the most --- you never lie, you always keep your promises, and you ALWAYS mean every single word you say. I love it how we constantly pray together. You have become so strong with your faith in God. You’ve been one of the best things that happened in my life. Thank you so much for all the happiness and comfort you give.. I would really hate myself if I’d be the one to ruin you..
20. I don’t know if this message will reach you. Every single day I miss you. I often smile despite myself how I remind myself of you. You taught me so much about life. And many envy us because of how unconventional you are in teaching us things, with all the reversed psychology experiences. Something may have taken our future away, but nothing in the world will take our past--- the memories with you that I hold most precious because it is all I have left of you. You’re the person I consider most beautiful inside and out. I love you not till death do us part, but until forever..
"Memories are just like that:
They linger when the person can't."
